The essence of time.

Oh dear its been a while! I've learned a lot this past few days and I believe this is a good time to share it with y'all.

The essence of time. I came up with this topic after I watched a documentary about an artist who used 8 1/2 years to draw a single portrait to impress his mentor and possible jump start his art career. It was quite interesting to me since I grew up with this idea that time is money and everything has to be done in a rather timely fashion. I plan my days and future with a keen eye for time and its value in my life. As a child I believed that I would be done with a substantial degree by 24 and perhaps practice for a while and then launch my acting career all around the same time.

Here I am 23 years old and unemployed, broke, almost overweight and yet still hopeful and happier with myself than I have ever been. Do I still plan my life with time being the major guideline. Not so much. I believe now that age is just a number and now I'm enjoying being myself more than ever. I'm not living my ideal life but I know that will happen sooner than later. Im nevertheless living in the moment and not trying to be any where else.

Has time then lost its essence in my books? No. The bible talks about making most of your youth. The way we choose to use our time reflects who we are and what we value most. I choose my time here on earth to love God and my neighbor. To worship the most high with all I can. The artist in the documentary I saw defied the idea that time in itself is of greater essence than our existence. People measure time used by measuring the number of productive (achievements, money, fame etc) things acquired.

I sometimes sit down and think about how productive I've been over the past few years and it amazes me at how shallow I become by looking at all the things I should've done by now. I think about the fact that I've never had a relationship lasted more than 6 months or even to be quite crude a real relationship. I think about how I still depend on my parents financial help and support. At how I've been a people pleaser from since I was old enough to shave.
But now as I blog I think of myself as loving myself unconditionally. Loving others even when they don't deserve it and loving God even when I know he might be super mad at me.

I am going to stop measuring the worth of my life, time and existence by looking at the things I should be doing and just see life as God sees it.

if time was measured by things and achievements then folks in poverty stricken regions would have lost the essence of time. Ask yourself why they seem to understand time more than we do.