Day 1: on "happyness diet"- the anxiety-free life

So today unlike every other day I was very self conscious about starting this journey or diet if I'm allowed to say that. I know there needs to be a pradigm shift and change in the way I think. I can't quite make of what this is all about and how I should reprogram my thought but like I said before Im not doing it on my own.

I haven't hired a shrink to help me out or seen a spriritualist. I'm tapping into a higher power- God to help me out.

So I know you're probably like ok..? So how did you do on your first day?

The day started out pretty normal. The weather was quite humid here in the south and I woke up about 30 minutes later than my usual time. Did some Yoga and meditation. Didn't beat myself out too much when my meditaion wasn't as "perfect" as I wanted it. I belive now in something called patience and I'm learning to inculcate that into my life. I was pretty worried though that I wasn't going to experience anything that was worthy of my blogging about. (1st issue)

After that I watched a couple of movies. That can always be positive and exciting..relaxing as well. I then went online for the usual surfing.

So Im trying to grow my hair out and I usually go to this hair forums that give advice on ways to do that. That was when the anxiety and comparisons began. I began thinking my hair wasn't growing as long as others and growing a little worried about it. (2nd issue)

I quickly snapped out of it!! (good job!).

Then it became clear to me. I wasn't supposed to forcefully be happy all of the sudden. This like everything else will take some time. Changing my idealogies and theories on things is not an overnight thing. Not even a 90- day thing. But like Rome which wasn't built in a day, it was obviously BUILT!!. And so will my journey into living the life God has created me to live.

Lesson learned today- The mind will always create a problem for you to be anxious about. It is up to me/you to be conscious enough to get rid of such thoughts and truly find peace and harmony within your self.

My question though for today is how do you live a passion filled and ambitious life without pushing your self and being a teeny-weeny bit anxious? Can anxiety at certain times actually be a healthy way of living? Is a little dose of it good?

The 90 day "happyness diet".

So like every 23 year old college graduate out there, I've been very anxious about the future. College did create a sense of security- a sense of "making it big once this is all said and done". Well not anymore. With the economy the way it's been over the last few years and the uncertainties of life, I've learned to SURRENDER. Yes I said it SURRENDER!!!!!!!!!!!!

To a lot of die-hard i-can-do-good-all-by-myself out there that seems impossible. But I am starting a new wave of thinking that goes beyond conventional wisdom and I'm doing it with the help of He that lives within me.

I am an anxious person and I've had to ask myself a lot of questions lately. Growing up, I was very much loved by my parents and got a lot of the things I wanted (not in a spoiled way) but hope you get it. I had a great relatiosnship with my father who taught me to push my self to achieve greatness. My father taught me a lot of other different things as well but I became this over-over-over achiever that was always aiming for the prize.

When did it all go wrong? The more I achieved the less satisfied I got and the more anxious it made me. I decided to slow down summer of 2010. It is sort of an epiphany for me and this blog is going to help me document this journey to every one.

I am going to start with a 90 happyness diet. Diet in this context is not to starve myself but to create an environment of overabundant positive, vibrant,joyous, worry-free, energy. Today Im signing a contract with the whole world on how I'm going to achieve that. In effect, I am surrendering it all to God!!
Let's see where this journey takes me. I know you will be more than happy to know how my life unfolds all throughout this process.

God bless.